Inside the mind of an indie girl

As soon as the natural looking brown haired beauty enters my garden, I offer her a cup of tea, organic of course. But she instead, offers me a hug. Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you Katie.
I ask her how she would describe her own personal style, and she chuckles; I know her well enough to see the confused glint in her eye as she searches her mind for an answer. Shrugging her shoulders she grins and tells me that she has “no fucking clue, most likely indie” and we burst out laughing together, it’s true. She has always been the one interested in music more so than fashion, though she is fashion conscious and always seems to be wearing beautiful clothes. I however may choose to word it slightly differently though; a cross between mainstream trends, and a backbone of indie culture.
My next question is somewhat linked to her indie culture. Sipping peppermint tea from a vintage floral teacup, Katie does indeed seem to be the very face of indie. Asking her something that puts her right in her comfort zone, I want her to tell me the top three artists that she listens to. Unlike the previous time, she answers straight away without a seconds thought “bastille, all time low, conor maynard”. I nod my head. The truth is, I already knew this; I share her love of bastille and all time low, having an interest in indie music myself. With the knowledge of her music taste and how she would describe her own personal style, I come to the conclusion that the two are most certainly linked. With an overruling influence of indie, and tints of mainstream trends, I can say that her music taste influences her fashion style. It is a common belief, that however more noticable in some than in others, music and culture influences clothes choices. Katie agrees with me, saying that she is “100% positive that my music taste has an influence on my style, I mean ever since I’ve discovered indie / rock I’ve changed my style”. She goes on to say that mainstream fashion trends also inspire her, along with whatever her favourite celebrities wear.

Do i matter?

If I wasn’t here tomorrow 
Would anybody care

I promised myself i’d write about this. but two weeks have passed, and i haven’t. so im just going to now. sorry its overdue. this is my heart speaking.

If I wasn’t here tomorrow 
Would anyone lose sleep

the other night i was at my aunty’s house. my mum was with friends. dancing to gangnam style. having fun. my dad was watching boxing with the guys. my little brother was with his friend. my little cousin was with his friend.

What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all

i was sitting alone reading a book.
i finished the book. i was still alone. nobody noticed me.

What if I just try not to remember
Would it matter at all
I wondered if anyone in the house would care if i ran away. it didn’t feel like it.
i came home. i didnt have fun. everyone else did.i went straight upstairs and locked myself into my room to cry.

If I wasn’t here tomorrow 
Would anybody care
Still stuck inside this sorrow
I’ve got nothing and going nowhere

this song came to thought.. i dont know where it came from. i’ve never heard of it before. its called *would it matter* by skillet. the lyrics are almost taken from my life.

What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all
What if I just try not to remember
Would it matter at all
All the chances that have passed me by
Would it matter if I gave it one more try 
Would it matter at all

 

do i matter to anyone? does my family really love me? why does my brother hate me so much when i try so hard with him?